Dusting off the blog

Ok ok, so the past year has been stupid. Really stupid. It was a rough year of stress, tension, and a lot of change. Not all of it was bad, but I totally abandoned my good habits in the world of food. The worst part of it, is that I never stop paying on my weight watchers subscription, though it went to an online only subscription instead of the monthly pass. What a waste of money. I can't even think about how much money I wasted.

I decided that since I am already paying for this month because my idiot self didn't cancel the subscription yet, I am going to just start using it again. I am tired of making excuses, I am tired of having this "problem."

I could list out all of the negatives that I have encountered, but that wouldn't really do me much good. So I am going to move forward with the positives.

1) I didn't gain back ALL of the weight. That's a plus right? At least I didn't totally start back at square one.

2) I can no longer blame someone else's eating habits on my lack of success. I live on my own now, cook all of my meals and buy all of my own food. No excuses. I don't hang out with anyone anymore (resisting urge to turn this into a negative).... so that isn't an issue either.

3) I don't really drink at all anymore. No more wasted calories or regretful moments or stupid decisions. Keeping it positive... I still enjoy a glass of wine here and there, but this will not be a wasteful temptation on my progress to being healthy anymore

4) I have support. I have someone who loves me for who I am right now. I am going to make myself better for me... and I'm sure they will dig it too :)

So - here it goes. I just spent $100 on some groceries and am about to put some music on and get cooking. Since I am not going to WW meetings anymore, I am going to use this blog as my accountability. It may not be the most interesting read ever, but I would appreciate support and suggestions/ideas.